So, now that our first half of our school year is over, I can take a deep breath and look back on what we’ve done so far. As a new homeschooler, I can see that I’ve had to adjust some of my expectations. The year started off strong, but then, as we got into our year, the boys have struggled with some things, and so have I. I’ve realized that I need to relax and enjoy my time with my children more. What is the point of homeschooling if I spend most of my day fighting with my kids? I wanted to do this so I would have time with them…happy time…time to just enjoy being together. I question if I am pushing them too much…am I not structured enough? do I need to just scrap it all and go back to the drawing board?
So what do I do? I am fortunate to belong to a homeschooling group with moms much more experienced in homeschooling than I am. I’ve been able to talk with them about my frustrations, and have enjoyed getting their perspective on the situation. In addition, I’ve gotten inspiration from reading blogs about homeschooling, (again, from experienced homeschool moms), in particular, Heart of Wisdom http://heartofwisdom.com/blog/ and Anne Elliot’s blog http://anneelliott.com/blog/my-discussions/.
I’ve decided to make a few changes, going with more of a delight directed approach in history and science, and really focusing on our bible study. After all, the main reason my husband and I wanted to homeschool our children is to be able to raise Godly men, how can I do this if I don’t put God first in my homeschooling? I’ve also spent a lot of time in prayer, and I am focusing on handing over my homeschooling to God EACH AND EVERY DAY. I know that He has goals He wants me to accomplish with my children. And if I will only submit to following His guidance, He will lead me in the way I need to go.
Still, I struggle with fully “releasing” everything. In the back of my mind I wonder “will it be enough?” Then I think about my days in the classroom…I know that as hard as I tried, I wasn’t able to give my students EVERYTHING I wanted to there. I certainly feel like I am giving my children far more than they were getting in their own classrooms…so maybe I just need to exhale and not worry about it so much. Just focus on getting the most out of each day…and worrying about tomorrow when it gets here…”Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it’s own.” Matthew 6:34
That’s the goal for this new year for me: To take each day and live it to the fullest for God, in homeschool and in life in general. If I can teach my children to live each day for the Lord, than I will consider our homeschool successful! I am looking forward to our two week break for Christmas, and I hope to come back in January with a renewed spirit, ready to enjoy the rest of the school year with my boys!