The Christmas Blahs!

Do you ever feel like Charlie Brown at Christmas?? You know, just not engaged, frustrated, tired, trying to find the “fun”? Well, that’s me right now. I can’t believe it’s only the second week of December and the blahs have already set in!! I love this time of year!! The lights, the music, the movies….but right now, I feel SO bogged down!

First of all, this is our last week of school before our 3 week holiday break, but I just cannot motivate myself to do school, let alone motivate my kids!! I need to write up a plan and print out their schedules…there are things we absolutely HAVE TO get done before our break….but I find myself just sitting there, staring at my clipboard, with my mind wandering all over the place.

We have family visits all month long! With these boys, I’m lucky if the house stays clean for an hour or two, let alone a month!! I can’t have everyone walk into this mess…so I’m constantly cleaning, washing, drying…cooking!! And forget shopping. I tell myself every year that I’m going to start early, but every year, I don’t. The countdown clock keeps ticking in my head “15 days…14…10….7!” Sigh…I swear December is always the quickest month of the year for me, there is just not enough time to do it all! And I promised myself that this holiday season was going to be different…peaceful even…and now I’m just frustrated!!

And then…a message on facebook…an old high school friend of my hubby’s…(in his 40’s)…he’s been waiting for a heart transplant for a while now…he’s not going to get one…he passed away last week, leaving behind a young son….Wow. Hold on, that’s the kind of stuff I don’t have to worry about for a long time yet!! But wait…one of my good friends (in her 30’s) buried her husband a few months ago..they have a 7 year old daughter. Two kids, both spending their first Christmas without a parent, and they aren’t even in their teens yet! Why am I letting all this other stuff stress me out??

I mean, really, we HOMESCHOOL, so if we don’t get everything done that I wanted to this week, we’ll just pick it up when we start back next year. Sure, we might be doing school until the end of June, but is that really a big deal?? And, okay, I can assure you my house will be clean and disinfected when the family comes to visit, but it might not be exactly well-organized…but as long as the bathrooms are clean and everyone can sit down and talk and hang out, that’s okay, right? And, yes, I will probably be joining those last-minute crowds wandering the malls in the days before Christmas, but they have a lot of deals then! So…..where is my focus? Is it on what’s most important???

No…once again, I have allowed the small things to outshine the BIGGEST thing…the birth of our Savior! Because of Him, I am blessed to live a life where I know that death is not the end. I have been given the gift of grace, in knowing that my sins are forgiven. God has blessed me with this amazing family, and the ability to spend time with them…if that means we order out for pizza…so be it!!

I have given myself permission to NOT get everything done this December. I have given myself permission to have a slightly messy house, and order out a little bit, so I can enjoy what is truly important…this family I have been blessed with!! I hope you all will do the same!!

Merry Christmas! Check out the Homeschool Crew holiday blog cruise to see other Crew members thoughts about Christmas!

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8 thoughts on “The Christmas Blahs!

  1. I’m sorry to hear about your friends who have lost loved ones. Life does get put into perspective when these things happen.

    We haven’t had one moment that feels like we are focusing on the point of this season this year. Yet, in reality, my plans are just that, mine.

    May He continue to teach all of us how to keep Him in the center while we bustle around teaching our children and living life.

    I’ll be praying for your friends. He knows their names.

    Blessings,
    Trish

    • Thanks Trish! You guys have had a lot going on lately too! But like you said, the plans are His, not ours. If we remind ourselves of that it is easier to keep a postivie perspective!

  2. I am right there with you on the blahs for homeschooling or doing other things to prepare for Christmas. My decorations are still in boxes that I can’t easily reach because boys created a disaster in front of them. I haven’t baked any cookies this year and I’ll be lucky to get photo cards ordered in time for January at this rate.

    But, like you mention, seeing the pain and suffering so many others are going through at the moment makes all of my ‘complaints’ trivial in the big picture. If all I ‘get’ from Advent and Christmas this year is a better perspective on life, then I’ve been richly rewarded.

    Thanks for sharing and linking up to the 40 Days of Seeking Him meme.

    • Thanks for hosting Laura. In light of all that has happened in the last couple of days, I am again reminded that the boxes and bags are not what’s most important…it’s the people in your life…and we need to treasure them.

  3. I had plans to be organized this year. I was going to be done by *Halloween* so I could enjoy December. Yeah, well…I better make another trip out so I can get my list done — even Amazon 2-day-shipping isn’t going to be able to help me much longerl

    And then the tragedy in Connecticut yesterday…yeah, if people get IOUs, I think we’ll all be OK.

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